Ok so this week was not good. I don't know what my deal is but it's like I want to eat everything in sight. Especially Christmas candy, chocolates, peppermints, etc. Plus buying a big box of Belgian Chocolate cups from costco was just a stupid thing to do! I thought that I could just eat one a day and it would be fine. It was for most of the days then one day I got ticked off about not being able to keep under my weight watcher points and ate like 5 or 6 of them. I just am so up and down with this food battle. Some days I think I can do it and other days like today I think, I love food too much and I can't overcome this battle. Plus I'm on this damn medication that makes me gain weight and increases my appetite but I can't just stop taking it because I go mental. I need a different medicine and that's a whole other battle I don't want to fight. Maybe I should start with that one and the rest would be easier. I've tried going off it twice to no success. Third times a charm right?!

I set my goal too high for last week as far as exercise but I still did exercise once and I lost 1.3 pounds. I meet with two of my sisters and my mom to talk about losing weight and set goals with them. We also use weight watchers to track how much we are eating. It's pretty easy once you get the hang of it. The hard part is committing yourself to keeping track of what you eat because it takes a some extra effort. I'm redoing my exercise goal but changing it to twice a week to begin with. I did eat more fruits and vegetables this week which helped me feel fuller and definitely helped me eat less junk food. So I feel like I'm on the right track this week. I am proud of what I accomplished and as a reward I get to buy something under $10 for the fun of it. Not treats of course! Oh my Grandma was there with us girls and we were talking about bras by Victoria Secret. So I tell the group that they don't have them in my size. Then Grandma says "I have a check for $46 and I know what I'm going to do with it. When you lose enough weight to fit into a Victoria's Secret bra I'll give you that money to pay for it." So there's another incentive to lose more weight. To get a great bra! Ha ha ha. Anyway feel free to make comments or notes of encouragement. Farewell till next week!

I'm setting weekly goals but I decided to set them on Thursdays since I go to weight watchers on that day. So this week's goal is to exercise 3 times using my new Wii game. I've done it once so far. I also want to track my points and I'm trying to but that is just a pre-goal which means I will not focus on it till next week. I want to make exercising a habit so I might have two goals some weeks. Starting out though the exercise goal is number one but I am being better with my food. I'm not eating a bunch of junk food in other words. I'm eating more fruits and veggies instead but I am still not tracking points yet.

So I started my work out routine with Bob and Jillian's "Biggest Loser" Wii game. It is hard work but I feel like I accomplished something from doing it. I am trying to do it 2 more times this week before Thursday the 17th and I think I can totally do that. My legs and arms are sore but I like that feeling because you know you did something good. I'm tired today though because my cpap mask is new and it might have leaked in the night or maybe I just didn't get enough r.e.m. sleep last night. I do remember waking up at least twice biting my tongue. That hurt. LOL. Anyway I can totally do this I know it. I am going to stick with it. I really want to feel good again and losing the weight is going to help me feel better.

So I bought a Wii fit to start me out. I also bought The Biggest Loser game and have used it once since I bought it. So my goal this week is to use the game 3 times for at least 15 minutes. That's my number one goal. My side goal is to watch what I normally eat in a week and be aware of the junk food and how much I am eating. I'll post again on Dec. 14 how my goal went and if I achieved it. Stay tuned for next week. :)